Sitting in my beautiful sunny room on a fall morning with my broken toe in a boot, I have finally accepted that I will need to slow down and take my time. The universe could not have given me a stronger wack that I am not invincible, not indestructable, superwoman or invulnerable. And so I sat, read, pondered and let my mind meander instead. I saw bluejays and red cardinals from my window. I had a sweet and funny conversation with a squirrel that couldn't believe it wasn't able to reach the yummy plant in my window.
And what came to me was that it would be so easy to send ripples into this world in an intentional way and really take in when it happens and commit to doing it. I want to stop being tenuous. I have run out of excuses. I can face what holds me back. I don't want to deflect instead of making decisions anymore. I don't want to keep out what wants to be let in because I am afraid that I will be a push-over and not able to say "no". Listening to David Whyte, I can continue to let my heart be broken for that is what opens up the world and myself to me. David is so wise; he says that arranging our world and life to prevent having our heart be broken, is a recipy for a dull, uncourageous "second life" (it's one of his poems) that tells God it has a headache.
And so I committed to
And what came to me was that it would be so easy to send ripples into this world in an intentional way and really take in when it happens and commit to doing it. I want to stop being tenuous. I have run out of excuses. I can face what holds me back. I don't want to deflect instead of making decisions anymore. I don't want to keep out what wants to be let in because I am afraid that I will be a push-over and not able to say "no". Listening to David Whyte, I can continue to let my heart be broken for that is what opens up the world and myself to me. David is so wise; he says that arranging our world and life to prevent having our heart be broken, is a recipy for a dull, uncourageous "second life" (it's one of his poems) that tells God it has a headache.
And so I committed to
- One act of Kindness and Grace each day
- One Act of strength and resilience each Week
- One Act of Generosity each Month
- As many moments of AWE as the universe will send my way. Fully open, fully experiencing with all my senses, blowing my mind, bulbbling with joy, taking my breath away AWE.
I will let you know how it goes. One thing I know for sure, Awe makes me humble, curious and deeply connected.
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